Day 4

This year is the year that I have decided that I am not going to be fat anymore. I have had this epiphany in the past, but with my dad and uncle dying of heart attacks I knew it was time I really do something about it. So last week I visited a nutritionist and she came up with a diet (which I really not allowed to say) that would help me change my eating habits. I already exercise 4-5 times a week so that is not an issue, but I in the past year have not paid any attention to what I was eating. The thing about me is that I don't have low self esteem about what I look like, but rather I accept my weight and choose not to do anything about it. Well that needs to change. So I have a food journal, I am counting every single calorie that goes in my mouth, and I am exercising like a crazy person. In the past 4 days my anxiety about this has gone from pretty high to a low manageable outlook. They say it takes 21 days to make a habit and I am 17 days till there. So wish me luck because I am going to need it :)

-Amanda

Chocolate and Salt

That is all I want :) Maybe I will just mix two together? French fries with chocolate sauce or chocolate ice cream with pretzels on it. That and crush up my Pamprin on top of it all. Sometimes it sucks being a girl, but my bitch card is useful for the next couple of days. It is nice when you are allowed to use it :)

-Amanda

Boot Camp

My gym has introduced a "Boot Camp" style class that I have started taking. I don't think I was was fully aware of the actual meaning of "Boot Camp" till the instructor yelled out "Alright time for our 100 lundges" My friend Robin and I looked at each other in horror. On top of that it was 100 dead lifts (bending over with 10 lbs weights in each had), 50 thighs lifts on each legs, and 400 crunches. I walked out of that class thinking I was going to die. The worst was waking up the next morning and not being able to squat down to go potty. In all honesty I am a believer in "No pain, No gain" so I am going back for my ass beating today and I can't wait! If I can't get a tummy tuck like I want then I might as well try and make it go away on my own :)

Was thinking about starting a diet blog with a bunch of people. Anyone interested?

-Amanda

PS Only a mom would use the word potty...

Summertime

So this is Julia's last week of school and as much I am looking forward to the non rush that summer brings, I am also dreading it. Last summer Julia was in day camp through her preschool so I wasn't worried and Sam was still on two naps. This summer will be totally different. I am having a little anxiety with what I am going to do with two kids all day for 2 1/2 months in a place where is gets to be 110 degrees outside. Yes, we have some activities planned, and yes we have friends to hang out with, but I can't be Mary Poppins everyday! I know it sounds totally selfish, lame, and I should be thankful that I am able to stay home with my children, but I am just hoping that I can be the good mom I want to be without them driving me crazy. Does anyone feel the same way?

Green with Envy

Yes it seems there is a ton of crazy thoughts going through my head this week. Well today I am living one. As we speak I have 3 children, one who is crying in her bed because she will not take a nap, another who is in her room jumping from her bed to the floor and shaking my entire house, and the other is my friend Robin's little boy who I will be watching for the night. Her oldest son comes after school in about 2 hours. As I watched Robin leave all totally dressed up for her 4 day trip to Vegas with her hubby I was sooooo jealous. Yet I know am being a good friend and that always comes back to you 10 times over, but damn how much would I love to be her right now. Oh well, maybe someday I will be the one dropping my kids off, looking all hot, and saying "Call me if you need me" One can hope right?

-Amanda

UPDATE: So this afternoon turned out to be called "The Frog Incident" We go to my friend's house to wait for her babysitter to show for the rest of the night. I have to go outside really quick to turn off their hot tub that the kids were using. I come back in the house and Samantha is screaming. I run to see where she is and I looked down and she had totally knocked down their aquarium on to the carpet. There was water, rocks, and little frogs everywhere!! I freak out, she freaks out, Julia, freaks out, Jake freaks out, but Luke the older one tells us to stay calm. We ended up catching one frog right away and most of the others were under the couch. We waited and they all came out and we caught them. Then I had to clean up glass, rocks, and water all over their carpet. Then we all made the trip to PetCo to replace all the stuff. I just didn't want to responsible for the frogs death. Mind you all this happens within a 40 min time period. Luckily when we get home frogs are still living and I re-did their tank and they seemed happy. If that is not an excuse for a beer then I don't know what is!!

Crazy Thinking

I actually Googled 5K races in my area. I have never thought about doing anything like that. Yes I know its only 3.5 miles, but for me to actually think I can do that is a big deal for me. I did it yesterday on the treadmill so maybe I will get enough courage to actually do it. Who knows, maybe a marathon is next. (Come on Summer lets do it!!)

-Amanda

You Know When...

You know when you are having trouble with you diet when you start dipping parts of a Hershey bar into the low calorie peanut butter and thinking "Well the PB is diet food."

-Amanda

32 and counting...

"I want a party with room fulls of laughter
Ten thousand tons of ice cream
And if I don't get the things I am after
I'm going to scream!"

-Veruca Salt from "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory"

My Latest Obsession

JEANS!!! Now that I have gone down two sizes I can not find jeans that fit. The are either too big in the but and thighs, or too low waisted so I have a so called "muffin top". And since I am short, I have to have a short length, but I am willing to go get them altered. I tired on at least 15 pairs today and none of them worked! Anyone have any good suggestions on a brand of jeans that they love? I am can fit into the Gap and Old Navy, but I want like a nice pair that I could use. Please help!!

-Amanda

The Day Off

Well like others there is no school today and it is either a fantastic thing or a totally horrible thing. They both just woke up so I have not been able to gage what kind of day it will be so far. My children are the type that if we stay home all day then they will drive me and each other crazy. I can not go to the gym because Sam has a snotty nose and I hate to that mom that brings sick kids where there are other kids. I can put $100 down though and say that she will not be the only one in the gym daycare with a cold, but I would still be worried about it. Let's pray for sun so at least a trip to the park can happen. Shopping is out of the question becuase Julia is at the age where she thinks she should have something in every store we go into to. It could be a store filled with bags of nails and she will ask over and over if she can have some. So I am playing Mary Poppins today and coloring, painting, playing Barbies, watching kid TV, in hopes that this day off is a pleasent one (just wish I had some chalk drawings to jump into). At least till this afternoon when Julia goes to the doctor for a checkup and realizes she will be getting a chicken pox shot. That is when you know what will hit the fan....

-Amanda

Wait for it....

Ok a new design is coming my way thanks to my girls at The Blog Cafe. They have done all my designs thus far and they rock! Then I will be happy to be back in Bloggy land with all my fellow Mommies. Also I will let you know that I have been a girl on a mission with my weight- 10 lbs so far! I am going to be a bridesmaid so I am going to look hot since I am the oldest one, have kids, and grey hair! So lets hope I can be witty and funny to keep you guys coming back :)

Love ya!

-Amanda

The Time Has Come

Well I think with my lack of posts and interest in figuring out what to write- I am officially taking a blogging break. I was thinking that maybe I will come back in the new year with a new design and a new outlook at thing. This has been a part of my life for almost 4 years and I am so grateful for all the people I have met through here. I have been able to express things that I would have never been able to. You have been there has Julia grew, Samantha was born, and the death of my Father- with all of your support I would have never made it. I thank all of you and I will still be stalking you and seeing what is up in your lives. I love you all and I once again Thank You for making my blogging experience such an awesome one.

To Tuesday, Renee, Summer, Gabrielle, Jazzy, Kelly, Lisanne, and all my other blogging girls- thank you and I love you!!

Love,

Amanda

A Hard Day

Today would have been my Dad's 59th birthday. I woke up this morning and that was the first thing I thought about. I still have his phone numbers programmed into my cell phone and I really wanted to call. So I called my brother instead. Not a day goes by that I don't wish I could call him even if it just to hear his voice for a minute. I honestly didn't think that today would be so hard. Silly me for thinking that I was going to me unemotional today. I just keep thinking that he is watching me and my family and that comforts me a lot.

So Happy Birthday Dad! I love you and miss you very much!

-Amanda

Not Dead

As I sit here and try and figure out what to write, Samantha is shoving a plastic dress up shoe in my face and crying. Why? Cause she thinks she is 5. She wants to wear them like her sister and can't quite figure it out. She will not sit in a high chair or the booster seat at the table because she wants to be just like Julia. Does that mean she can go to school now because I need a break :)

So its been a long time since I have been around. This everyday school thing is kicking my ass. And it sucks cause its half day so I feel like once I drop her off I have to turn around and pick her up again. She loves it though! We had homework for the first time last night and she was so excited. I am sure that will all change when she realizes that is an everyday thing. But she is doing really well and is having a blast.

As for me, we bought a treadmill and my ass is actually using it. I put on "Sex and the City" and work out to those girls. Jon has been using it to, so I am glad we spent the money. Better than the gym :) Other than that I am just here, reading you blogs, doing laundry, and trying to not think about what to eat all the time.

Here is a cute picture of Sam since she has not been up here is a long time. Thanks for still reading!

-Amanda

The End of it All

Well Harry Potter now sits on my bedside table all finished. Cried my eyes out. So good. What am I going to read now??

Yow Know When...

You know when you are a total mom when you are driving alone (in a mini van I might add) and you are blasting your daughter's Hannah Montana CD. The kicker- you know all the words :)

-Amanda

I know I know I suck so bad at this blogging thing

Ok so its been a long ass time. I know. I feel bad. I feel even worse that I really have nothing new and exciting to talk about. Which then makes me sad cause it means I have no life :) But then it could also mean that things are so good that nothing to talk about is good? Either way I should at least be updating my blog every once and a while. I am sure I have lost most of my readers do to the fact that the last two posts have been pictures :) They are good pictures though.

Today I am getting my IUD. A little nervous. And I am having issues with the fact that they wanted to do it while I was on my period and so my thought is how am I going to be sitting on the table with nothing but a paper gown and nothing on protecting the mess down there. Yes that might be WAY too much info, but I am a girl and most of you are girls so I bet you would think the same thing. So anyway that is happening today. No kids for me for 5 years and I am totally ok with that.

Alright well there you have it. My VERY boring life and now you all know that I am on my period :) So what is going on with you? Please tell me!!

-Amanda

Best Friends Forever!

I went to visit my BFF Summer this past weekend. I had so much fun! We shopped and drank way too much! But I have to say we are hot bitches! I love you girl!

Tagged

Yes Nae Nae tagged me and thank god cause I have nothing to blog about :)

What were you doing 10 years ago?
1997 - Jon and I had moved in to our own apartment since we lived with a CRAZY roommate. I was working at the YMCA and going to school since I was 21 and really needed to graduate.

What were you doing 1 year ago? I had a new little baby and was adjusting to life with 2 kids

Five snacks you enjoy:

1. Peanut M&Ms
2. Cheeze Its
3. Hummus and pita chips
4. Chips and salsa
5. Strawberries

Five songs that you know all the lyrics to:

1. Anything by Justin Timberlake cause you know him and I are secret lovers
2. Material Girl by Madonna
3. My Heart So Blue by Erasure (that one is for Summer)
4. Rio by Duran Duran
5. Wake Me Up Before you Go Go by Wham (what can I say- great work out Song)

Five things you would do if you were a millionaire:

1. Buy my mom a house
2. Have a healthy cook and personal trainer
3. Pay off any debt
4. Take my whole family and best friends on huge vacation
5. Make sure my girls are secure for the rest of their lives

Five bad habits:

1. The Internet- love it. Hard to be without it
2. Shopping for clothes
3. Swearing
4. Picking anything that is on my face
5. Total phone whore

Five things you like doing:

1. Laying out with a good book
2. Going out to eat- just something about being served
3. cooking- something about getting praise cause it is so darn good
4. playing with my kids
5. hanging out and watching "The Sopranos" with the hubby

Five things you would never wear again:

1. Bangs
2. My really fat jeans
3. Anything from Wet Seal
4. LA Gear High Tops
5. The dress I wore to my Dad's funeral

Five favorite toys:

1. My Ipod shuffle
2. My computer
3. My cell phone
4. The DVD player in the mini van- got have one!
5. Julia's Barbie Dream House- I could sit and play with that for ages!

Ok so there you have it. If you would like to participate please do so :)

-Amanda

Gyno, Waxing, and Diets- Oh My!!!

Today I get to visit the world's cutest Gynecologist. He delivered Samantha so he has seen it all and then some. Still makes me nervous though. I seem to always get stuck with the ones that are my age and cute! Well whatever I will deal. I am also doing the big waxing again this week. Why you ask? Because it was awesome. I mean the actual waxing part sucks, but I loved the results. It definitely worked in this house :) And then there is the diet I am starting today. The Drama Mama and I have done this before and we both lost 43 lbs! Luckily I do not weigh as much as I did back then, so another 40 lbs, I will be hot! Anyway, wish me some luck on my week adventures :)

-Amanda