So Guess What??

I broke my ankle and got nominated for Hottest Mommy Blogger all in the same day. Oh yeah and two posts- I am a roll!!!

-Amanda

PS- I slipped and fell at the park trying to rescue my child from the money bars.

I Better Do It

Tuesday informed me that I better update my blog. I reminded her that my blog sucks and that I suck cause I have hardly anything to write about. So here is my attempt at writing a post- bear with me :) We have just been hanging out lately. We went and saw the play "Wicked" last Saturday in LA and I think Julia has decided that she wants to be a Broadway Star. That is fine by me- gets me the good seats in the house :) Samantha now says "Baby" and "Apple" so I guess that means I am doing a pretty good job. She now walks me in her room at night, saying "Ni-Ni, Ni-Ni" which means she wants to got to sleep. It is so cute. I had to rock, sing, read books, lay there till she feel asleep with Julia. Amazing how different they are as babies. I think I would want a ton of kids if they were all that easy. Wait- did i just say that??

Anyway, we are going to Arizona next week for 4 days to visit my brother for his 35Th birthday. He has a pool and a dog so that is all Julia has been talking about. I also made him this DVD of all these old pictures that I found in my dad's things and put them to music. I used the Beatles song "In My Life" and it makes me cry every time I watch it. I am sure it will make him too.

My mom and I went to a psychic the other day and she told me some things that made my head swim. I guess I am going to live to be 91- yeah for me! No major health problems. I am an extremely lucky person so if you want me to go to Vegas with you I am there! Also that my dad has been with me everyday for the last 3 months. I kind of knew that, but it was nice to hear. She says he is here because I have not done something that he wants me to do. I wish I knew what it was. It would be nice if he would visit my brother for a change :)

Also since the hubby is afraid of getting fixed (aka vasectomy) I think I might get an IUD implanted. Anyone have one and want to tell me about it? I have heard some good and some bad, but never actually talked to someone with it. I am an okay pill taker. I just don't want to have to worry about it all the time. Yes this is a total mom blog so I can talk about this stuff :)

Alright, so there is my update. All for you Tuesday- who by the way should call me sometime. I hope everyone has a great weekend :)

-Amanda

Their Real Names

When Julia was little my grandma commented that her real name seemed to be "No no don't touch" because that is what we said to her all the time. She got really good as responding to her real name. As she got older, I still have to use it, but not as much. She does much better with Julia. So anyway, yesterday I was outside of Julia's dance class with Samantha. She loves to pick up random stuff off the ground and put it in her mouth. She is a year old and that is her job. So I noticed that I kept saying "No no yucky" to her. So I have finally discovered her real name :) Lets hope that does not stick and we can get back to Samantha real soon.

What is your kids real names?

-Amanda

The Princess is 5!!!!

Today my first born Miss. Julia turns the Big 5!!! Man time goes by so fast!! Soon she will be going to Prom and driving a car. And you think I have grey hairs now! Well Happy Birthday my big girl. You have been a blessing to this family and we love you very much!

Love,
Mommy, Daddy, and Sissy

There Once a Girl Named Amanda

Well it has been a while since I have posted. Really nothing new to report. Kids are good. Hubby is good. I thought I would share something seeing that this is a my blog and I can. Something that maybe you have gone through too. I just feel the need to be honest and maybe it will help me with what I am going through.

Ever since my dad died I feel like something is missing. Yes, I know that is a normal feeling when someone loses a loved one. I just have never been one to be unhappy. I am the friend that you call to cheer up. The person that is there to make you laugh. It just seems to have gone away. I started to isolate my friends and my family. My attitude towards my marriage was all wrong. I just was missing me and I was just having a hard time trying to get it back. Everyone around me noticed that I have changed. I just played it off as I have 2 kids now and I need to deal with that. So little by little, Amanda had gone away. I would not call it an actual intervention, but some loved ones of mine decided that it was time I seek some help. So I did. And it was scary at first. I still get nervous everytime I go. But it was not as clinical and weird as I thought it was going to be. This person has allowed me to express all of my feelings and not only does she say it is ok, but she helps me fix them. It has been about 2 months now and my husband mentioned to me the other night "My Amanda is coming back" That was the best birthday present in the world. I want me back. I want to feel happy again. I am not on any medication as a personal choice because I want to work through this and feel everything. I am just at the point where I am starting to see things differently and I am working on changing. I actually love it. So maybe instead of finding me- I find a better me at the end of all of this.

So there you have it. Full blown honesty. I will hopefully get back in the swing of things and post again and comment again. I miss my blogger buddies and all their insights. So thank all of you. This blog has brought me more than I could have ever hoped for.

-Amanda